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Wednesday, 05 July 2006

  • Dear E,

    Has it ever happened to you, that no matter how long it takes you don't learn anything unless someone else who is not a direct relation to you tells you?

    It happened to me last night, I had really never seen anything wrong with the way I was.  Aparently there is alot I need to work with, but I figured if Ian could put up with them without insulting me then its okay.  However, I never calculated, that it was a problem with others.

    Its hard to change bad habbits as they say those die hard.  But I want to so bad, I want to be perfect.  Of course, I know no one is perfect.

    I don't want to be overly sensitive but I am, I can't help it, I don't like people making comments about me much. Sometimes, they hurt my feelings and no one takes notice, even though they are right in what they say, they don't know what is behind it, or why it is done.

    Guess is just things that happen.  Life goes on.

Wednesday, 21 June 2006

  • Currently Listening
    Buttons Pt.2
    By Pussycat Dolls (Ft Snoop Dogg)
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    Dear E,

     

    Do you think I have issues?  Well, judging from our history and looking at it from the outside perspective I can say that I do.  However, unlike most people I don’t think they are issues that need fixing.

     

    For example, when it comes to talking to my friends, I don’t censor them in fact I welcome anything anyone has to say about anything, but like anything in life that freedom has its limitations like everything else.  I go with a “3 strikes you are out”.  As to what can constitute a strike with me….  Well when it comes to me, when you are describing me directly or indirectly what comes out of your mouth can be anything but profanity, I will pass it twice but the third time, I guess I must warn you I am not the forgive and forget type. Because when you forgive someone more than twice, you are only setting the grown for them to do it to you all over again. Lucky you can’t talk back to me E. 

     

    Now you must be wondering how someone so, like me can be so unforgiving, well let me take you out of your puzzlement, first of all I do forgive twice even, but if by the second time the crust of stupidity has not chipped of your neurons then you are a royal waste of my time.  Now let me make it clear there is a difference between being down right ignorant and being stupid and that is: “Stupidity is knowing what to do and not doing it, ignorance is not knowing the difference”.

     

    As far as another number of things that could give my friends negative points in my scoreboard, are the following things.  I am not a stray dog to inspire pity there for what really sends me off the deep end is when they have the royal guts to tell me they feel sorry for me, and let me clarify there is different types of sorry, but the kind that come from their believe that they trust in the right religion or believe and I don’t, danm, is just good enough to make me puke.  Give me a break they don’t know the cardinal rule of life, which is “In politics and religion, human will never agree”.

     

    Like anyone E, I welcome a good debate but if there is something that will push all the wrong buttons with me is for someone to not only tell I don’t agree with you but then give me a lame unfounded excuse.  I mean some of them are so stupid they are funny, and others just make me wonder, where their brain has gone to.  Yes, it is for these thoughts I have sometimes been branded with different descriptions, but I welcome them all because, I rather be labeled then be a cut out copy like everyone else.

Tuesday, 20 June 2006

  • Currently Listening
    HIStory: Past, Present and Future, Book I
    By Michael Jackson
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    - 2Bad

    Jus in Case You Didn't Hear...

    Jessenator
    It's most likely a 12 year old boy that ratted him out.
     
    ichase
    Ratted him out about what? That he made another music video? Oh no! The secret is out!
     
    Jessenator 
    No, that Michael mollested him and he told the police, so MJ wants one more bump in the bed.

    ichase 
    Riiiiiiiight, I'm so sure someone would make a music video about that. Besides, just in case you didn't hear, he was found innocent of those charges from that kid and his mother were going around trying to scam stars for money with.   

    Jessenator
    Just in case you didn't hear, they found OJ Simpson not guilty, too, but they found loads od evidence against him. Besides, MJ admitted to owning child pornography in court. And why would you flee the country if you were actually innocent.
      
    ichase 
    I was doubtful that he could admit owning child pornography in court and not go to jail, since it's illegal to posses it. So I check on Wikipedia and found the following....
      
    ichase 
    As part of the evidence to show attraction to boys, the prosecution introduced two books featuring nude prepubescent boys. The books were seized from Jackson in 1993 and never returned. The prosecution portrayed them as being child erotica or pornography, showing a sexual attraction to boys....
      
    ichase 
    However, the defense characterized them as wholly non-sexual, non-pornographic, art books. The defense pointed out that the books were legal to possess, and Jackson was therefore never charged with owning them. While both featured nudity, neither book contains any depictions of sexual acts. Jackson lost possession of the books long before meeting the current accuser, which is why the books were a part of the 1108 evidence. He has never been accused of showing these two books to any boys.
      
    ichase 
    It goes on to say that at least one of the books was given to him by a fan, but that doesn't really matter since they are not child pornography to begin with as they are legal to own.

    As for leaving the country, he had plenty of oppourtunity to do that before the trial if he wanted to "flee". But leaving the country after the trial is not hard to imagine, as he has many friends all around the world.
     
    thriller 
    The difference between OJ and MJ is that Tom Sneddon made doubly sure that MJ would have no loop holes, since he pointed out how much the laws had changed since 1993, that this time he wouldn't moonwalk his way out of court unless he could prove beyond all reasonable doubt that he was innocent.
      
    thriller
    Secondly, MJ is a really smart person and I don't think he would have blanky admited to owning child porn because if he had no juror or judge in his right mind would have let him go free as ichase has pointed out. And in case you didn't know, Tom's definition of child porn was MJ's vast collection of Anne Geddes books and photos. Which the judge pointed out were not illegal to own.
     
    thriller 
    And lastly flee from what? As far as I know, MJ was here in this country and in Santa Barbara, from the first day of his trial to the very last day of it, whatever he did after that is not fleeing it called a VACATION!
      
    Jessenator 
    Do you really consider purchasing a house and declaring immigration a vacation? I'm sorry, but when I go on vacation, I stay a week or two and I don't declare immigration.
      
    thriller 
    I'm sorry don't compare your sorry excuse of a vacation with MJ's kind of a vacation. Cuz unlike you he can afford more than a few weeks. That's right and don't u dare bring up the he is broke crap, because I will believe that the day he files for welfare. FYI that is still not fleeing its called owning real estate.
      
    Jessenator 
    Umm. Filing immigration usually doesn't mean he's going on vacation. It means you've moved out of the country. Not very smart, are you  

    thriller
    That is called relocation, not fleeing try harder LMAO. Dang ichase is gonna get so many views on this video LOL

    Jessenator 
    try harder? Your the one that called filing immigration vacation.
      
    thriller 
    No, what i was calling a vacation was MJ leaving the country, because he has done it before for long periods at a time. Now so what if he filed immigration that is still not fleeing, that is a process that goes with reloaction, or extended vacations, such as the ones he has taken before.

    LMAO, guess you know who won that, argument, yeah baby, me. Oh my, I had fun with that one.  At first I thought he or she would be a real challenge but then Ian corrected me and said he seemed to back pedaling his arguments. LOL Which is so true, poor guy, he really should think twice than to argue with an MJ Fan, we are fans for a reason, because we see beyond the media crap.

Sunday, 18 June 2006

  • Currently Listening
    Blueprint 2: The Gift & The Curse
    By Jay-Z

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    - '03 Bonnie & Clyde

    Dear E,

     

    You have no idea how I have missed you.  The void has been filled now, now that I can tell you everything that has happened to me today.  I will feel the void of this past year at another time as I have greater urgency to unload my frustrated soul at this time.

     

    Today I started to wonder, about where I am going in my life, of where I started, what are my goals my aspirations in life.  When I was little I used to think I’d be married by twenty-five.  LMAO.  That’s not going to happen, and its not that I’m a negative thinker oh no, on the contrary am quite alright with that.  Because unlike some people I do admit and realize I am not house wife material or parent material either; which is why I am glad I don’t have kids.  I guess now that I am getting to that age I see clear that those are two thinks I will never do.  I also thought I would someday have my own place where if I wanted to vacuum or not it would be just fine, where cleaning was when I said how I said and when I said it.  Well I don’t think that is what I have now.

     

    You know me; I am a person that can put up with a lot, yes quite a bit of taking in and no spitting out.  Well I guess I learned as I have been shown before that cleaning must be done sooner or later or someone is going to do it for you, which for most people is a blessing having someone clean for you, but for me is the worst thing anyone can do for me.  You are probably wondering why?  Invasion of privacy that is a big issue with me, which only my mother understands.  I so want to go home to her.

Monday, 25 April 2005

  • Dear E,

     

    What a day of surprises!  People change, or always been as they are but it is now that we aren’t so blind to see it.

     

    Don't you just hate it when that happens.  Well anyways, it does.  That is life in its entire splendor.

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